between the already and the not yet

Here is where I find myself,
More and more these days,
Not that I would choose it,
Still providence, this wind it chooses me.

For requests great and small,
I ask my desire, for intent,
Pleading persistently, waiting willingly,
I will not complain, take Your time.

"No, why have you to wonder,
How long the answer to tarry.
Why shouldn't I have answered,
This uncertainty the moment you asked?"

Given, spoken, sent, the answer is already.
But between the uttering and the happening,
Is this tightrope I end up walking.
For the promise given is come to pass but not yet,
So here on the wire my heart is tense,
Stretched, in stretching to grow,
While we are here,
Between the already and the not yet.

sč
Singapore, May 24th, 2008